I would have been 33 week along. Why do I look this shit up?
I Understand , I do this to myself too.. #theVoid #theWhatIfs sigh, be strong girl.
I try not to think about you and keep my mind constantly occupied.
but i cant help but let my mind wander and wonder What you would’ve looked like, What it would feel like to see you grow more and more, and holding you for the first time.
It makes me smile but it hurts so much and as much as i try to suppress it.. i can’t. I do Miss You my little blueberry. I can only hate myself bc Although it took me a while to love you, i did love you and did my best for what is worth. I will Always Love You. I’m so sorry.